So, I found out today that I have an appt. to take a data entry test for a company I am hoping to look into being employed by. We shall see! It's this Monday, so please pray I can do very well so they'll want to hire me, thinking of me as an asset to the team, you know? Yeah, so, anyways. I have found out some stuff about my typing that I thought I could share. Here's my WPM typing speed, according to an online test (my second try at this type of test. The first try, I had a 98% accuracy rating, roughly, and I only typed 58 WPM, I believe it was...):

And here's some of my results from a data entry test I DL'd:

Like an in the tummy kind of sick. Not good. :( I don't know what to do anymore. Lord, what do you want me to do? Give me the words to say. I have no wisdom. Please, God... My Abba. Give me some. Show me what to do and say, and may I do and say it well!

Tonight I had an upsetting chat with a friend I love dearly. This friend basically shared with me about how they wish their life would just end because nothing brings them joy and they just feel miserable 24/7, according to them. There was a time in my life where I felt like this. The way I found out of it, I just don't believe they would listen to well, because every time I have tried to share it before.. I just felt like it wasn't taken seriously. Anywho.

This friend has a good life. They're very blessed. They have a good family, a nice home, a pretty decent job with a decent work crew, one good friend, and a pretty decent SO. What more do you need that you could be lacking, right? I would say God, but this person knows that. I just don't know how to encourage this person to seek Him out. It seems there is some unseen barrier, there? Have any of you brothers and sisters in Christ ever experienced that? When you try to share what you believe God has laid on your heart, and it's like you just FEEL a wall is right there, so thick, and not going to fall? What did you do? Have you made it through said wall? If so, how? I keep running into this same wall with this friend. How do I let them know to seek God's will out, that they have to FULLY surrender themselves? How can I explain that to them? I feel they lack understanding. Like, they lack the relational connection to Christ... What would you do?

I need help. I'm beat down, and now my friend seems pretty beat down too. I'm seriously doing my best, even if no one else notices, like my family, my SO, and my friends. What else can I do? Show me Lord. I'm about ready to say "if it's another state, show me, Lord. If it's another continent, show me! Send me, God. I'm willing." You know? I don't feel I can be quite so free though, as I have someone I'm hoping to marry and so a lot depends on them. But I am getting to where I just don't know what else to do. Please pray that a job will come open soon with my name written ALL over it in the northern GA region, near where my Honey lives. And pray for above said friend, that their heart would be made willing, and that God would give us each wisdom and the knowledge to know what to say and how to say it, and how to show each other what we really mean. Please, pray that for us.

Thanks so much for reading this! Please pray for God to bless said friend with a wonderful night's rest, to where they can wake up (if they allow themselves sleep) and feel renewed, and be willing to try and start seeing all the positives in life. That they could walk into the light and out of the darkness, you know? Please. Pray for hope.

With Love in Christ,

~*Akarui Mitsukai*~

P.S. And please pray for me and my stress level. I'm beginning to really feel it. And my chest isn't doing so well with the feeling tight stuff. I'm seriously beginning to grow weary of having one more stressful incident happen to me. Haha, heaven forbid I have a heart attack early, you know! *sigh* Anywho. Please pray. Thank you so so soooo much! *hugs*

Okay, so, tonight I plan to try and apply for a few more jobs. We shall see how this all turns out. Be praying for me.

I'm tired of being stressed. I seriously can see myself dying of a heart attack or some such if I stay as stressed as I am within a few years time, if I'm lucky. Seriously. So, yeah... I'm in the process of just trying to let it all go and just hang on to Christ. Be praying for me, please. It'll be tough, but I hope I'm off to a decent start. Trying to clear my head of worry and concerns and just leave it all in Christ's hands every morning and night.

Gotta go to bed soon so I can be up in time for J to call me before he goes to his first day of work! Leaving at 7:30 AM. ... I hope I get a good night's rest. I seriously need one. I haven't been sleeping well at ALL lately. :/ Anywho. So, yeah... Gotta get to bed soon.

With Love for a Savior,

~*Akarui Mitsukai*~

Okay, so, I believe it has been a little while since I have been very active here on Xanga. So sorry! Hope you all are doing okay with out all of my little replies. ;) But anywho... So, to update you guys, here are some bullets to get you up to speed!:

• First off, I still have yet to find a job. I'm trying my hardest, and doing even more than I had ever imagined to find work. It's so insane! Like, what am I to do, you know? If any of you know of anyone hiring within the state of Georgia, feel free to let me know! I'm looking for any job that can pay my bills and leave me with at LEAST enough to buy some food with between the paychecks. LOL. Sad, but true. I'd love to have the perfect job and get paid well for it! However, in today's economy, jobs seem to be rare to me. Even more so the more specific I get. So, yeah. Anywho have any ideas?
• Secondly, I'm very discouraged about finding employment, especially with my bank account running dry before the end of next month, most likely. Dumb unaccounted for expenses (dental work need, and car check-ups). So, yeah... Anyone in need of a summer baby-sitter? n.n; lol
• Thirdly, I love my guy so much more almost every day that I see him. He was super supportive this week. When I was stressed out sitting in a chair, he remembered how badly I was needing a massage lately and came over to massage my shoulders for a little bit. He sat with me through two crying spells. It meant a lot to me that he was willing to just be there for me. He kept asking if there was anything he could do, and I tried to let him know that sometimes, the best thing you can do for me is simply to reach over, put your arms around me and tell me it will all be okay, and just let me cry as I need to. You know? He kept trying to make me smile this week when I hit a low, and as much as it irritated me, it made me happy to see him trying to pick me up, you know? And most importantly.... He came through for me and encouraged me to keep going to God in prayer with this issue and not give up. He even tried to find some scriptures for me at one point. I appreciate that in him, and I love him. It gives me great cause for hope.
• Fourth, I'm trying to find at least some summer employment while I'm waiting for a full-time job. I wish I had've thought to done this sooner, but I didn't want to put another job on my list for just a short while. I need some long-term jobs! So, yeah... I'm looking for little jobs, like yard/house work and/or babysitting. Or even a summer job with a retail agency or something. Just whatever, so long as it pays.

My wonderful boyfriend's family is being SO supportive of me during this time. His Dad has helped me numerous times with getting my applications and cover letters up to par, and such. His grandmother has volunteered to let me borrow a room in her house, rent free (!!!! :D Yay!), 'til the end of summer while I am looking for work, so long as I help around the house and stuff.... And his mom has been trying to help me find jobs and apartments online and such. They're just a great crew! I love'em and am so thankful to my God for them! Thank you, sweet Jesus, for blessing me with him and his family.

I got to be a Maid of Honor in a wedding this past weekend. I had to miss another friend's wedding, however, due to not having the money to afford the trip. My bridesmaid gown should be coming in soon for the next wedding I'm in... I don't know how I will afford it, but I'll work something out. I know it's extremely important to this friend for me to be there for her. (It's the girl I lived with for like... two years when we moved off-campus together.) I realized that, even more so, I can't wait to have my wedding. :) I hope it's a BEAUTIFUL point in my life! *happy sigh* And I can't wait to wed the one I am with. Don't get me wrong! I'm not looking forward to the having to find a way to save up for the wedding or the planning, or paying for a dress... But I am looking forward to the day of, having everything come to fruition. I'm just sad and afraid, too, though, because I feel like we'll have to put it off longer than we had hoped, because I have NO funds right now for a wedding, period. :( I don't know what to do.

Be praying my parents can help me at least a smidge with my bills, please. I don't know what else to do, and it's humbling to have to ask for their help when I know they seem to barely be able to afford themselves and my oldest sister... But, I have to. I have no other option currently. :/ I hope something comes up soon in leiu of a job.

And not to mention, VBS starts this Sunday. Oh boy! haha. Hopefully, this will go well! In mention of church-related stuff, though, I found out today that an old friend of mine came to know the Lord recently! PRAISE GOD FOR THAT!!!! She's hoping to be baptised soon. Hopefully I'll learn more in relation to that later. :)

Be praying for me, guys! I'm trying to quit living in this miserable attitude I've had lately, and trying to pick myself up a bit and just keep pressing on with faith. Love you and miss you all!

Leave some love,

~*Akarui Mitsukai*~

the Cheerful Angel

P.S. I could really really use some hand written letters of encouragement soon! :p That would be so nice! :)

Hey guys!

   Okay, so... As you all should know, I've been hunting for a job lately. Had a couple of interviews: the after-school job at the Montessori Academy was filled from the inside, and the office assistant with the recreation department here didn't call back, so I guess I didn't make it to interview phase two. Oh well. Life goes on, though I'm not sure how it will past July... *sigh*

   Please be praying for me to find work soon. I'm applying anywhere and everywhere. With my goal to become a school counselor for a few years, I don't think I need the experience teaching. That's nice. It broadens my job hunt a little bit. I'm still looking for work working with children. Not having much luck. I've sent out like... over 30-40 applications. So, yeah... No luck yet. Gotta keep on keeping on. Please be praying I can find work soon! I don't know what I'll do after July if I haven't found a job by then, because basically I'll be out of cash to pay my necessary bills with (student loans/health insurance/car insurance & payment/etc.)... So, yeah. I need work soon.

    Please dear God! My Abba. Please, provide for me and my Honey jobs. Dear Lord, if you could... give me a job working with children. Give my sweety the job you have for him, Lord. Please God. May we seek you out on every possible job opportunity and seek out your guidance on the jobs we have the possibility of having. Guide him in your will, Lord.

Thank you, Abba, for providing for us,

~*Akarui Mitsukai*~

P.S. Perhaps more to come later, if I get time. :/ Not much free down-time right now. Poo.